My Doom

 What I would give for someone to stay

 For somebody to love when I open my eyes

 Or my heart

 When they really see me 

 To stay and embrace

 The fire I am

 To hold the monster I’ve become

 Maybe a warm touch will finally lift my mouth to a smile

 An embrace will set me free 

 The darkness I choose doesn't help 

 But why should I leave if I only take it with me? 

 The shadow of a winged monster follows close

 Telling of a doom 

 And now I have you

 No

 Keep away 

 Why take you down with me? 

 All hope may leave

 All life may burn

 But you will stay

 My life for you? 

 Yes

 This shadow of a world needs life like yours

 I can only destroy it

Philippians 2:12-16

 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.

 Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.” Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky as you hold firmly to the word of life. And then I will be able to boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor in vain.

Once Upon a Time, Or A Poem to Myself

once upon a time there was a little girl

she had a boy that loved her

one upon a time they used to play together

they used to make up when they fought with each other

once upon a time they couldn't see each other 

they where torn apart and couldn't be together

once upon a time she couldn't take it any more 

she packed a bag and left to go see him

once upon a time she went to see him 

when she arrived he looked into her eyes

once upon a time he said he couldn't have her 

he said it hurt to much and that he wouldn't have her

once upon a time he left her on the door step

left her in the rain with no where to go

once upon a time she used to be happy

she used to be fine when she got in a fight

once upon a time she thought it was her fault 

she thought he left her because she did something wrong

Once upon a time she believed in happy endings

That love would vanquish evil

Once upon a time a girl couldn't live without a boy

She hurt herself because it had been proven that she wasn't worth it

Once upon a time he loved her

But all beautiful things are killed eventually. 

Greetings Inter Web!

 Hello people of the internet!

 My name is Tiyler (as you can already see), and this *gestures toward screen* is my blog! I thought it would be a good idea to start off with why I want to blog. Yeah, it's cliché and everyone starts with it, but trends usually start for a good reason. So I'm gonna do it

 Blogging has been something I've wanted to do for a long time. Because I've been told I'm good at poetry so I wanted to share it. Also, I've been wanting an outlet for a while and I think it will be good for me. And the other day I was just like:

 "Know what? I'm gonna do it."

 So, I did.

 And now I have a blog! Yay!

 I wont just be posting poems. I'll also post bible verses that are important to me, my relationship with God, and just my day to day life. Cause being a home schooled 15 year old girl living 15 minutes from the nearest Walmart and having cats, chickens, and a dog may be interesting to someone. And if not, I'll be posting other things too, so stick around.

 Feel free to comment and leave me tips/criticism and questions for me to answer!

 Guys, you're awesome.
                                          Tiyler

Steel on Skin

Steel on skin picking, scratching
The only way we cope
The painful hate for ourselves
The lies we live
The lessons unlearned

Believe me, I love you
I hate myself more
The one thing left
The lessons unlearned
The lives we end

They won't hear me!
They won't see me!
Drink my own blood to keep the act going
Pills and injections?
Just death and my attractions
Knives and stings?
The pain that gives me wings

You won't understand
The pain
The anger
The consuming rage,
Creeping through the darkness
Falling through the moon light

My life and my end
The lines seem to blend
The only thing left,
The lessons unlearned
The lives we end

They won't hear me!
They won't see me!
Drink my own blood to keep the act going
Pills and injections?
Just death and my attractions
Knives and stings?
The pain that gives me wings

Kill the lights
Smash the cage
Bombs away
Let's crash this plane
Before the night takes us with it to our grave

Just one more scream
One more bullet
One more blood drip on the pavement!

My heart runs dry
My last shot fired
The only thing left
The lessons unlearned
The lives we end

They won't hear me!
They won't see me!
Drink my own blood to keep the act going
Pills and injections?
Just death and my attractions
Knives and stings?
The pain that gives me wings

~Tiyler James